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One of the main reasons I volunteered to go to India on a joint government to government joint project was to be able to visit Kolkata  was (Calcutta) in order to visit Dakshineswar Kali Temple where Ramakrishna had served as Priest of the temple. While attending engineering school over five years I had systematically read the 8 volume works of Swami Vivekananda. Vivekananda had travelled world wide and attended the Parlament of Religions and he gave a number of addresses to the attendees. I have the original very large book from that time and I hope to soon scan the original pages and post them in the page which will be focused on Swamiji Vivekananda.

Reading and studying Swamini's lectures (they were stenographically written down as he spoke) changed my outlook on life. One of the teaching of Ramakrishna was that "All religions are but different roads leading to the same God."  I embraced that teaching.  This visit was in 1994 during the Monsoon time.   This was 29 years ago.  The joint project work kept us in Bihar, India for about three weeks.  The next year, 1995, I returned to visit with my wife.  We stayed approximately a month. 

The experience and enjoyment of those visits has never left me.  It never will.  I will say more later and include a photo gallary.  I took about 600 photos of India as Peggy and I traveleled throught many parts of India. 

The Teachings of Swamiji Vivekananda

put in <article> and give some extracts based on RAMAKRISHNA AS WE SAW HIM and the book about Vivekananda and his followers and the establishment of the Vedanta Societies in USA.  during their time in USA; also scan the Parlament of Religion 1893 parts where Vivekananda is quoted. etc.

what about Sri Aurobindo, The Divine Life and The Mother.



Gravitas: The story of Swami Vivekananda

Excellent 4 minute summary of Swami Vivekanana. The commentator mentions The World Parliament of Religion, 1893. I have the original book which provides all of the speeches and sermons given. My goal is to post the sections regarding Vivekananda and what he said. He was a great man indeed.  His teachings in eight volumes of his lectures which were stenographically recorded which I read systematically during my five years in engineering shcool.

Though in Hindi, the pictures you will see tell you a great deal about Swami (Teacher) Vivekanana







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''WAR IS HELL ''  General William T. Sherman, USA Civil War, 1880 speech.


The video above is 2 minutes of horrendous video footage of the bottom line in what happens when collective madness takes over human's otherwise rational minds. This war in Ukraine, which at the moment is a ''proxy'' war (See ref. 1 below) but perhaps not for long.

From all appearences and news sources other than American main stream media (MSM) sources, such as TV outlets like ABC, CBS, NBC, CNN, etc., United States in consort with their long time partner Great Britain, and also former German Chancellor, the Merkle woman and too French President Macroroni - engineered this war between Russia and Ukraine for the purpose of destroying the Russian Federation and then busting up the huge land mass, some 2 and 1/2 land size as USA  - in order for Rusia to be exploited for its vast almost unlimited - at least for several hundred years - resources. 

The conspiractors, for that is what they are (USA, GB, France, German, possibly others but of minor significance in the total scheme) had plotted the present situation back in I believe it was 2014 when the MISK AGREEMENT between the principal parties, Ukraine, USA, RUSSIA, GB, German and France Macrononi was agreed upon.  But in reality, by their own public admissions, mainly by the Merkle woman and French President - their participation was all a subterfuge. (See Ref. 2 below)

It appears that the Biden administration and their Gang of Four - had anticipated that through the use of massive sanctions, and the disconnect of Russia from the "Swift" communications system that allows countries to transact busines - that they could bring about an economic collapse of Russia Federation. 

The Gang of Four plus Biden plans sort of boomeranged, didn't it..  In fact, after the USA and Great Britain in actualitity ''appropriated''' over 350 billion of dollars held in "trust" by them, the Pirate countries led by their Pirate in Chief, Biden - but belonging to Russia and its people.  Other countries were shocked into a sensible response.

''Wait a minute! If USA and GB can grab Russian money deposits in the Western Banking System - they can ''stick it to us in the same way.''  These countries were shock at what happened.  The United States it had long been assumed - was governed by an honest system of laws.. These countries such as India, Turkey, in fact most all of them, realized that the same thing that happened to the fabulously oil rich country of Venezuela could quite easly happen to them if the fangs of the United States were directed at them. . In this case they, the USA and its cohort partner, GB appropriated (that means they stole) most if not all of Venezuela's gold. 

This act of theft was the first step in the plan to totally destroy Venezuela economy and strarve its people in the process. Biden and his Gang of Four assume that if the people of Venezuela get hungry enough and enough of their children die from lack of medical supplies and food - the ''people'' will rise up and demand the overthrow of the corrupt venezuela government in a peoples ''color revolution.'' This ''color revolution'' is to be colored RED as a reminder that the United States is the  EXCEPTIONAL NATION - a nation above all other nations of the world - in setting the standard for morality, truthfullness, justice and their American Way.

Ref 1. A proxy war is an armed conflict between two states or non-state actors, one or both of which act at the instigation or on behalf of other parties that are not directly involved in the hostilities. In order for a conflict to be considered a proxy war, there must be a direct, long-term relationship between external actors and the belligerents involved.. Wikepidia

Ref2. A subterfuge is the use of deception to achieve an end (in the case now before you - this END is to be the destruction of the Russian Federation). A subterfuge is a deceptive stragagem [a strategy to us] a device. The American Heritage Dictionary of English Language, 5th Ed.





The voice that I would hear calling me was, I am certain, was that of my mother, Radja.  She was living in Garden City and teaching at St. Mary's School for Girls.  I was living in St. Louis County with Ruth, a very kind person.  The lonliness that I felt was real.  I cannot deny it. Even today that echo of the past, and the lonliness returns when I think about it.  I was never schizophrenic, never mentally educationally retarded.  I was the child of a great war. And I was one of the lucky ones. 





Mazurka Dabrowskiego   (This is really one neat song, anthem. It tells you that the Poles have a lot of fight in them and won't take BS from anyone no batter how big.)

a really great sounding song

Poland has not yet perished so long as we are still alive

What the alien force has taken from us, we shall retrieve with a stabre.

March, March, Dabrowski, from the Italian land to Poland.

Under your command

We shall rejoin the nation.

March, March, Dabrowski,

From the Italian land to Poland

Under your command

We shall rejoin the nation

Well cross the Vistua and Warta,

We shall be Polish.

Bonaparte has given us the example of how we should prevail

March, March, Dabrowski

From the Italian land to Poland

Under your command

We shall rejoin the nation.

March, March, Dabrowski

From the Italian land to Poland.

We shall rejoin the nation



Go Poland, You won last year - You Can Do It Again

Poland Wins Again


Poland Beat the Russkies Today

Tomorrow is Another Day

Serbia Yesterday, Serbia Today, Serbia Tomorrow


When at First You Don't Succeed

Try Try Again


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(2023-Jan-25) A Flight to the Past



And that is what Germany is doing - got their tail curled up under their belly. What a nation of cowards, it sure looks that way.Germany for sure has CAPITULATED.

I watched your President's short video praising China on its 100th year anniversary and on China's great accomplishments since its independence and liberation from the oppression and tyranny of the Nationalist forces. I am glad to find out that the president of Serbia is a progressive - placing the needs of the society ahead of the enrichment of a few above the needs of the many. I recorded his short speech and will find time to forward to you. Also, the same feeling for your foreign minister whose first name is Nikola, like you.


I read how Serbia is wanting to join the EU but also wants to remain neutral in terms of military alliances with neither EU, U.S.A. or China and Russia. That is non-alignment position and is the best one to take. But EU will never concede to Serbia on that. EU is a lackey dog of the Americans and Serbia will have to choose whether to align with the dogs or the bear and the dragon - at some point in time. The bear did not steal Kosovo away from Serbia. The EU aided and abetted the theft of Kosovo from Serbia. Remember that.


And if Serbia thinks that aligning with EU will make it prosper economically - think again - think about Greece. Britain did one wise thing when it joined the EU. It kept its own currency.

When a nation gives up its own currency to some bureaucratic system - it gives up fully its sovereignty. And it is then almost impossible to escape, to extricate itself from the strangulation that Brussels can inflict on that country. That is why Greece is totally impoverished today. Had they kept their currency then at least they could have used financial tools to keep its people from starving. They are now paying the price for their foolish surrender of their independence.


Now to my point tonight. Here is an article for you to read when you have time from your busy schedule.


I take no position on the question of "gay rights" or whether homosexual conduct is normal or a mental aberration.  The question is simply one of what does sovereignty actually mean?

What I do say is that Hungary, like Poland is a strong Christian nation which opposes homosexual practices {not necessarily orientation} as against their customs and religious teachings.

These customs and religious teachings go back over a thousand years. Yet in both of these countries the bureaucratic perverts in Brussels are demanding that Hungry and Poland suppress, to deny - their very customs and religious beliefs and teachings to appease a very small minority of people who believe homosexual practices, behavoir - are normal activities.

If Poland and Hungry acquiesce to the dictates [diktieren, диктирати] of the dictator, the Brussel bureaucratic rulers, then these countries will no longer be sovereign nations.

Are they to surrender their dignity and national respect over the issue of forcing these Christian countries to legitimize sexual behavior that goes totally against the teaching of the Christian beliefs? That is what is being demanded of them.


This very issue will also confront Serbia if she decides that material prosperity is more important to the Serbian nation than its dignity and sovereignty.

All that Serbia gains by joining the EU is possible improved economic conditions. But at what cost? And how did the surrender by that ancient and honorable nation, Greece, turn out for them? Are they better today for throwing in their lot with the EU?


This reminds me of the great words of the Mexican patriot, Emiliano Zapata, who is remembered by his people for his immortal words when he said,

"It is better to die standing on your feet than begging on your knees!"


Isn't national honor and respect for your country's customs and religious beliefs, {and Serbian East Orthodox tradition which goes back over a thousand years} worth more than the ability to buy a few more "things" "gadgets" "plastic stuff" that soon clog up your landfills and garbage dumps?


What will Hungry do? What will Poland do? What will Serbia do?

At what price does a nation surrender its sovereignty, its dignity and self-respect to join with the harlot and prostitute itself to short term and fleeting pleasures?


Serbia sacrificed over twenty-five percent of its young male population to answer that question when the Nazis demanded that it surrender its sovereignty in exchange for "peace." What was the answer that the Serbs gave to the Nazis? "It is better to die standing on your feet than begging on your knees!"


I don't know Serbian history. But I am certain that was the spirit that moved the partisans to fight regardless of the sacrifice. The honor and dignity of the nation of Serbia came FIRST!

Nenad Cuic of the Kingdom of Serbia



What follow are not my words but those of Pat Buchanan, United States, from article he wrote to

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EU to Hungary's Victor Orban - Back Gay Rights or Get Out, 2021-07-02



Respect LBGT rights or get out of the EU, 66Dutch Prime Minister Mark Rutte instructed Hungary's Viktor Orban at last week's gathering of the European Union in Brussels.

According to Reuters, attendees described it as the "most intense personal clash among the bloc's leaders in years."

What caused the clash?

Hungary just passed a law that bans schools from using materials seen as pro-homosexuality. According to the AP, the new law "prohibits sharing content on homosexuality or sex reassignment to people under 18 in school sex education programs, films or advertisements."

Rutte eagerly related details of his confrontation with Orban: "It was really forceful, a deep feeling that this could not be. It was about our values; this is what we stand for." *

*(1) "I said, 'Stop this; you must withdraw the law, and if you don't like that and really say that the European values are not your values, then you must think about whether to remain in the European Union.'"

Orban calls himself a freedom fighter and defender of traditional Catholic values who believes in democracy but not liberalism: "The Hungarian nation is not a mere pile of individuals."

Almost everyone apparently came down hard on Orban.

European Council President Charles Michel reminded Orban "that values such as freedom, tolerance and human dignity are at the heart of the EU."

Several EU member states signed a letter declaring: "Respect and tolerance (2) are at the core of the European project. We are committed to carry on with this effort, making sure that future European generations grow up in an atmosphere of equality and respect." (3)

U.N. Secretary-General Antonio Guterres was in the meeting and, asked about Hungary's new law, replied: "All forms of discrimination are totally unacceptable and obviously any form of discrimination in relation to LGBTQ+ people are totally unacceptable."

The issues raised by this confrontation are many.

First, those who warned in the 1960s that the EU, which began as a European Coal and Steel Community, a French-German free-trade zone of six nations, would inevitably evolve and expand into a transnational regime that would seek to impose its "values" on its members have been proven right.

And what are "EU values"? Who declares them; who defines them?

Christian teachings have a pedigree that goes back millennia.

But what is the source of moral authority for modernity's doctrine that homosexuality is moral, other than some transient ideology, which Russell Kirk reminded us is political religion?

What is the source of the morality that teaches same-sex unions are the equal of traditional marriage and any government that does not agree is a bigoted regime with which we ought not associate?

For the stand the EU takes today — that homosexuality is natural and normal and should be morally and legally the equal to other forms of sexual expression — flatly contradicts those Christian beliefs and values that Europe itself reflected at the EU's infancy.

Do values change? Or are people simply converted to new faiths, new beliefs, new ideas and new "values" that contradict the old ones that were taught and believed for centuries?

If tolerance is, as Michel declares, an EU value, is the canopy of tolerance not wide enough, and the big tent of tolerance not large enough, to include the Christian values Orban espouses, though they contradict the EU values that Rutte and others declare?

Is not Hungary being subjected to EU discrimination for the moral offense of holding on to beliefs that differ from the new EU consensus?


Is the EU's liberalism so intolerant of dissent it would expel an EU member who does not embrace its 21st-century teachings on LGBT rights?

Not until this century in the USA was homosexuality declared a constitutional right. Justice Antonin Scalia famously dissented from that decision.

And if Hungary holds to ideas and beliefs Scalia held, and tens of millions of Americans still hold, but is forced out of the EU for so doing, why would we Americans not stand behind Hungary's right to dissent?

American values, once declared to be freedom, liberty and independence, have evolved into inclusiveness, diversity and tolerance.

Which brings us to the cancel culture.

Where is the tolerance here for differences of belief about whether homosexuality is moral? Cannot those who reject newly established opinion still be included in the company of decent men? Or do the values of inclusion and diversity not extend that far?

Why should disbelievers in the moral equality of homosexuality be excluded from the circle of decent men?
We're getting close here to what cancel culture is all about.

Are future European generations to be taught that the Christian position on homosexuality was backward, bigoted and hateful and that its abandonment marked a major step in human progress?

If the Hungarian people and nation find that EU values conflict with their Catholic and Hungarian values, they should declare their independence of the EU as anything other than a trading bloc.

Patrick J. Buchanan is the author of "Nixon's White House Wars: The Battles That Made and Broke a President and Divided America Forever."

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*(1) What this guy Rutte is actually saying is this: The European Union is the dominant authority that transcends any other authority or belief systemsof its member states that is at variance with the rules and dictates of The Gang of Brusselites. This includes the teachings, or shall we say - the beliefs of the churches; and also the nation's LAWS. Are the laws of a soverign nation subserviant to a bunch of Brusselite bureaucrats.  Say it ain't so, Joe 

In other words, Hungary, Poland, Netherlands, Deutschland, Deutschland uber Alles, France, and the "has been" Britain, etc., etc., all the low life European Coolies - whose prime function in the oranization (the EU) is to carry the water for the Brusselites, the SAHIBS (as the meaning of the word in this case is known well in India) and to clean their chamber pots on time.

RotorRooter Rutte use of the word "values" is a deflection, a diversion of his true meaning and intent of the word - values. We saw this same ploy used by the Wicked Witch of the West - where her every utterence was "our vaues this" and "our values that" as though SHE WAS THE HOLDER OF THE VALUES when in reality both she and RotorRooter Rutte are nothing but holders in good standing of the Golden Fleece Award. It is YOU, citizens of the EU, that Rotor Rooter Rutte wants to fleece. 

You see, the value of a thing, an idea, a belief system, is what YOU the individual deem it to be. YOU the individual set the value based on what YOU feel is important to YOU. Many people value things in terms of money. That is, their value of an object, be it a workd of art or literature, etc., is QUANTIFIED.

But there are other circumstances where it is not possible to quantify the meaure of our values in terms of a unit called money or its substitutes. Take for instance an enviroment where there is not known the thing called money. Where there is no MINE AND THINE. Then it may be that the people in such a society or group will come to value their relationship with each other as most important - and the measure of that relationship might well be in "how much do I trust this other person." Thus the measure of the trust we hold for another determines the weight of the value we hold for that other person.

In other words, values are not COLLECTIVE. RotorRooter Rutte would have you believe that there is one set and only one set of values that you are allowed to hold, one belief system and only one, - if you want to be ONE OF THEM. And that is those permitted by the high priests in the Temple of the Brusselites from where sprout such rubbish.

<aside> Let me divert for one moment and give you an aside to clarify one aspect of what I am trying to say and how it weighs in great measure what may be the outcome of the war that is happening now with Russia and Ukraine/NATO and its piglets.

When my true mother, a Serb, retuned from a visit to Russia (which was exactly in the immediate aftermath of Chernoby, she wrote to me a letter prior to her visit from Manhattan to Chattanooga (where I was living at the time) which said, in part,

"Here is a bit which you will find interesting. In Russia when a person comes to visit another in say, the apartment, he will say upon entering the room, "Your brother has arrived" or in a similar way, "your brother is here." Then Radja said, "They are establishing the basis of the RELATIONSHIP. For instance, (she continued) "He is not my brother. What is his relationship to ME."


Radja then continued to explain to me that in the Russian culture TRUST IS EVERYTHING. If you lie, if you break your word, if you double-cross a Russian - then they are through with you from then on. They generally take people at their word."

Then I remembered what I had once heard Nikita Sergeyevich Krushchev say (but in what context I do not now remember).

"Fool me once, shame on YOU. Fool me twice - shame on ME."

Is this what Deutschland, Deutschland uber Alles really wanted? Is this what France or Britain really wants? Or is this occupation by the EU bureaucrats, Rule by the Bureateriat. Is this what you, Poland, a strong Catholic nation want - or likewise Hungary - or the rest of the EU/NATO bunch? The Bureateriat telling your people what is and what is not acceptable sexual practices when in fact as far as the Bureateriat is concerned - ALL sexual styles is just fine with them. Have a smorgasbord of sex, whatever your likes and tastes might be.  And because RotorRooter Rutte has told you that the Bureateriat will decide what your"values" shall be, what is approved (by THEM) and what is not acceptable (by THEM) you will have NO choice in the matter.  Well I ask you Poland, Hungary, etcetera etcetera why don't you keep your values for you and your nation and tell the Bureateriat to go f%#*&2ff.  The EU is collapsing anyway, this very moment!  The EMU (European Monetary Union) is BUSTED and going under. The ECB has f*%732D all of you members of the EU. All that you saved for the future is evaporating away and there ain't nothing you can do about it. The Maastricht Treaty was a sham from the beginning. The big bank and the ECB never intended to honor the spirit and intentions of the Maastricht Treaty.  And the biggest gangster who inflamed the monetary storm was the EU banker's best friend, Ben, the noble gas winner Ben Beer_nanke. You're going down folks, down down and out.  And the prime culprit is the U.S. Federal Reserve which has NO Federal in it.  It too is a sham. The FED serves the giant banks and only the giant banks in the U.S. And they fu*$$d YOU royally to make hundreds of billions of profits for the very few at YOUR expense and the American people's expense. Go ahead and cry, 'cause tears is all your are going to have left to give to your family. If you'all can't see that you have been HAD by the U.S. FED - then you better put a dunce cap on your head and go fly away.

Russian people will never again trust the Americans or even the EU states. You could have been independent of the U.S., gone out on your own and become very prosperous.  Now all you've got left is the big tit of the U.S. government and the hope that they will let you suck on it so that you will get enough nourishment to survive.

The crystal has been shattered into a thousand pieces. And now the trust that was is turned to dust. In its place is a finger on the trigger. Is this really what you wanted for your country, for its people? For your families?  For the future of your children?

Are you now, America, Europe, Japan, going to now go Kamikaze, it's all or nothing? What's to loose now? Put all your chips on the table? Are you now Dostoevsky's The Gambler? Bet everything on the belief that the American Superpower horse will win the race? 

Do you realize that Russia can destroy every major city of all NATO members - utterly devestate them, within 15 minutes of any launch. Did not your schools teach you what happened to beautiful Warsaw, its virtual total destruction by the NAZI fanatics; what about beautiful old Berlin? How did it end for that city? 

Christian Poland, Christain Germany, Christian France - have you forgotten the teaching of Christ?  Luke 14:28

King James Bible
For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it?


New Living Translation
"But don't begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it?


Berean Standard Bible
Which of you, wishing to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost to see if he has the resources to complete it?



The Republic of the United States of America is facing, NOT, repeat, NOT, an existential event. It is actually and truly facing an EXTINCTION EVENT which will lead to its ultimate DEMISE.

America's very own ''EXTINCTION EVENT''

And to better understand how and why these delusional politicians both on the USA side and also the EU and its NATO children, read this famous analysis - the same condition, same ''disease'' if you will allow me to call a thing by its right name.


Let's see why.

Groupthink Among Policy Makers - and how this time it may well destroy the country we have all loved - because of a few wacoos who are disregarding the lives of millions of Americans this time.


Let's see if we can figure out what these Big Cheese EU masters are really up to. Someting don't quite add up. They say one thing with high fallutin sounding words. But then do the oposite of what you'd expect. 

I tell you true - you citizens of the EU - you are being led to your slaughter by these American tyrants. They are




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Victor E. Frankle, M.D, (Neurology & Psychotheropy (Logo Therapy)

(1)  What is Meant by Meaning? (36 mb 192 bit),  Audio Sound Seminar, 25min (This sound seminar by Dr. Frankle was sent to me 53 years ago by Dr. Harte toward the end of my freshman year in engineering school. I have held onto it all these years.  Recently with new technology and software I have been able to re-create its quality from the original.  Magnetic tapes do become brittle over time.  So luck has been with me in preserving this recording.

(2)  Self-Transendence.  This is the other Dr. Frankle sound seminar Dr. Harte sent to me. 

Initial rough draft of transcript in provided  Transcripts 





FREUD.SEXUALITY.MORALITY 48 Page illumination of man's most inner desires.

This is a 48 page pamphlet, and includes in the back sections four pages of advertisement for books by the Eugenics Publishing. These books deal exclusively with sexual topics which seems to me apropo for almost anything Freudian.  This pamplet was part of Ruth Downing;s memorabilia collection which included the unpublished lecture notes of Dr. Margaret Mahler, M.D., Psychoanalyst and pediatrician (approx 150 pages). (See below for more details regarding Margaret Mahler.)

The pamplet is very brittle and the images are true to its present color. Initially I am sure the text was black print on white pamphlet paper. I have post the entire pamphlet. It is in JPG format. 

But then I will follow through making the jpg files each searchable pdf. If you are in a hurry, and Freud interests you to the extent that there are some who still enjoy driving around in Model Ts - then with an image to pdf converter you can turn each page into text and copy it into MS Word and go at it to the extent that you find it pleasurable in accordence with Freud's Pleasure Principle.


This paper of Freud' is historical. But I doubt myself whether Freud would have given permission to a publisher who advocated Eugenics - permission to publish his work.

(2023-Jan-11 Rev)

FREUD.SEXUALITY.MORALITY 48 Page illumination of man's most inner desires.

Letter Series (UPDATED 2023-Jan-13 9:14am CST)


Dr. James R. Harte, M.D., Child Psychiatrist & Correspondence over twenty-five years  [Jan 3, 2023 I have posted about 70% of them and some of the letters are mixed and a couple I still have to find the missing pages. But what I have posted does give you an idea of the product of my first nine years of life, my isolation from any significant contact with any adults during those years.

In otherwords, actually instituionalized but along with a large number of other children, all boys because in those days the sexes were not mixed as such. 

But I will add that WE, me and the many others, were ALL IN THE SAME BOAT TOGETHER. Nothing happened to me that didn't happen to millions of other children following the Second Great War to End All Wars. We were all desperately lonley, desperately wanting to be loved by some adult who would take care of us, take us away from this place. But there were no adults around other than the few who were the care-takers of us children. We were ALL the product of the war in Europe, WW-2, a year later after peace had returned. 

But the consequeces of war continue for several generations following the actual participants and countries involved in that initial war, involved in the actual combat engagements. That is why it often takes more than an average person's lifetime for the wounds of a great war to heal. The casualties live on for many decades later.

And that is why, in my own personal opinion, it is so terrible what Biden and his henchmen and Brown Shirts are doing TO Ukraine and its people. How  cruel can this Biden be - to destroy the only significant source of energy for Germany and much of Europe. It means great suffering for all of people; young and old, the children and old people too. Especially the children of Germany and the old people who are poor.

What did THEY do to deserve this treatment? Where is this Biden, where is his humanity? Does he have no feeling for the geat harm he is doing to the innocent of those who were supposed to be friends of the United States?

And these self-serving TYRANTS are USING UKRAINE and this guy – Zelensky for ulterior motive. "Used" as these ghouls (ghouls = One who delights in the revolting, morbid, or loathsome.

But really it refers to a person who gives you the feeling, and belief that he is out to help you, he is working for your advantage, to bring the good things to life - for Presudebt Zelensky and the people of Ukraine.

In reality, these people, Biden and his cohorts in this case, wear fancy and expensive suits and nice cloths and always speak to you in ways to quiet down your fears.

But in the end, when you are in most need of their help – they will RUN RUN RUN AWAY from you after they have gotten out of you all they can. Just look at their history.

What they have done to others – THEY WILL DO UNTO YOU!  When it is to THEIR advantage.

That is what the idiom "to use" means in the above context.

Why do they do it to others, why do they bring to others this misery and grief and tragedy?

Because they are in classical Freudian terms – PSYCHOPATHS of the highest excellence of what it means to be a psychopath.

Ted Bundy is a perfect example of this type of person. Only his victims were young attractive woman - not young German and European children and old people. 

But, well, right now it is Ukraine people, Mother Ukraine. Young and old people of Ukraine and Russia; and young men dying in battle and leaving their chidlren without a father in their life - in Ukraine and Russia too.

And also in the latter stages of victimization is Syria, is Iraq, was the Late Lybia, the Late Afghanistan, the Late Vietnam, etc. etc. to the Nth power.

Remember, these are my opinions and may not be based on facts because the facts are probably fully classified. So take it for what it is I write, a late night soliloquy. And what do I think is the MOTIVE BEHIND THIS ATROCITY? Caused by Biden and his henchmen?.

It's Raytheon first! and then some left overs for public schools, and for the homeless Vietnam vets of another era; for the millions of other homeless who are living on the streets - not of just the streets of Loredo, Texas, and all over California the Sunshine state and all over the Republic of the United States of America - that Raytheon and its like-kind species - must come first.- Oh, soliloquy of the late night hours?

Soliloquy: The act of speaking to oneself. Which many have told me is the first cardinal sign of my emerging Dementia Praecox. Here's WIKI ... Dementia praecox is a disused psychiatric diagnosis that originally designated a chronic, deteriorating psychotic disorder characterized by rapid cognitive disintegration, usually beginning in the late teens or early adulthood.

Is that me? or is that Biden and Company? Or is it true that Raytheon and its like kind species - really do control the affairs of this nation, once upon a time known as The Republic of these United States of Ameria. Now I think this is gone, Gone with the Wind. A result of Climate Change I am sure.

2023_March_05_EXPERIMENT_with_development_for_new_nenadcuic_webpage.html   We are moving large sections

What is the Biden and his gang's modus operandi - how a good cop comes to know who is the criminal(s) by his (their) repeat behavior patters, their mode of operating which repeats with each robbery, or murder of a small and innocent country such as Vietnam or now Ukraine (big geography but very small economy; but! its diamonds are in the safe?  And what are these diamonds that Ukraine holds?  Their STRATEGIC LOCATION to the object of Biden and the other like-mided scoundrels? The Russian Federation - and the Bidenscoundrelites' Impossible Dream and Quest to grab the Russia land and the resources while there seem yet to be time to pull off the caper.

And this pattern has been repeating over and over again since shortly after World War II when the USA ruled the roost over all other contenders in the world.

In their minds (now get this in yours)

IT IS FOR OTHERS TO PAY THE CONSEQUENCES, PAY THE PRICE for the misery they bring to the innocent.

Their, that is - for these psychopath's it is for their victims -to pay the price. Germany and Europe are now paying dearly the price. And just what did they do to deserve this treatment? Where they not friends, allies, of Biden and his ilk?

It is Not the pertetrators who are to pay. That is ALWAYS the case with this type of "personality disorder." Rubish with trying to make it sound like a "sickness" that might be amendable to treatment. These psychopaths are the Children of the Devil, chidren of Satan himself.

These psychopaths, such as, IN MY PERSONAL OPINION – AND THAT IS ALL IT IS - that is what they are - for the definition of the psychopath includes in major emphasis - THE TOTAL LACK OF A CONSCIENCE. Or, as Dr. Freud would say, the Super-Ego never developed in these types of people. So, I suppose it is not their fault - what they really are - as they didn't bring the condition on themselves.  They were sort of BORN being that way.

They, such as the Bidenites, know academically right from wrong. But it is just that – ACADEMIC. They don't FEEL anything for you. They don't feel anything for the suffering of the Ukrainian people - suffering that the Bidenites brought to them.  They don't feel for the suffering in the extreme cold inflicted on the children and old people of Germany that they, the Bidenites caused by their deliberate actions of terror upon Germany.

They, they Bidenites, that TYPE of person, they have NO EMPATHY for their victims. And Ukraine is their biggest PLUMB to pick at the present time. But they have "skinned" Germany real good, haven't they. Biden has taught the Germans real good - whose is real boss, Big Daddy. 

I have NEVER yet heard Biden express ANY sympathy for all the KILLING he has brought to BOTH Ukraine and Russia. In other words, he is INCAPABLE of putting himself into the shoes of the Ukrainian people. That is why, with ZERO EMPATHY you never sense or hear any HUMAN feeling from him or his bunch of fellow traveling psychopaths.

All you ever hear is "canned political-speak."

After Ukraine has been thoroughly destroyed – because Russia legitimately sees allowing the NATO Piglets on their very borders as Biden and the NATO Gangsters are pushing to do – and then next will come the missiles, etc. then Biden will attempt a "preventive surgical strike" at Russia, another Operation Barbarossa.

But to clench the deal, to be able to fully crush the Russian Federation and then grab all its resources (Just as Biden's ideal predecessor and historical mentor, a guy called Adolf Hitler tried to do, and as many others have tried such as the Wizkid Napoleon), first his gang will try to take out Red China by capturing Taiwan under the pretext of "liberating Taiwan's people and to bring to them DEMOCRACY (Iraq version I assure you).

These delusional conspirators will then try to put some "feet on the ground" and then put the missile stuff in Taiwan. Then they will, for all intense and purposes – have China "checkmated."

Because China's entire Pacific facing seaboard comprises its most essential industrial and military centers. This entire coast line is most vulnerable. When Biden and possibly his NATO Piglets knock-out China – then they have a good shot at coming up on Russia along the China-Russia very long border - over thousand miles.

They all pray to their Devil, the Great Satan, whom (gots to use good English you know) they worship as their role model – that with this two-front strategy – they can finish off Russia. Of-course they know N. Korea will come in to the action strong. But they figure they can NUKE and PUKE on North Korea and what does it matter to psychopaths if North Korea vaporizes a few tens of millions of American citizens along the pacific seaboard.

Actually, I'm not sure anyone East of the Rocky's would give a damn themselves anyway. A nuke here and a nuke there - will for sure clean up a lot of excrement. Excrement, excrement every where, and all the lands did stink. Excrement, excrement nor any turd to eat.

It all smells fishy to me.  Perhaps a better plan, perhaps a course correction, is to move the rudder of our great Ship of State in a new direction with a new purpose and a new national policy. Why not move toward the direction to make friends with the Russian people, and the Chinese people. The world is big enough for all to prosper step by step. Invest in other people. People are you most valuable asset. Do not throw them away. Make an investment in their POTENTIAL abilities - and facilitate the path to its realization. Then we will all prosper. Invest in people, both here an the many smaller and poor nations of the world and we will all receive a truly great return on our investments. That is what the people of China, now a very prosperous nation, are achieving through their Belt and Road Initiative. Make it a win-win for all of us by becoming FRIENDS with those we have treated as enemies. It is better to smell the roses than the alternative which is death.

The other thing that's got these Satan worshipers in a tizzy is that China has switch its navy from floating Junks to top of the line HIGH TECH war ships and Nuke Subs and troop carriers. The last thing the Pentagon wants is a very strong China NAVY. Why?

Well try the history of the WW-2 Pacific Theatre and Japan's long preparation and long term aims. Because China already has large numbers of troop carry ships and landing craft, etc., (being about now fully mobilized for a navy war) that becomes a war to the finish – they fear if China can capture Midway – then Hawaii is a goner and then the West Coast becomes the major target for China's multi-million-man army to land. And the Chinese DO NOT FEAR DEATH.

Then you get a land war on the home front that will make the Civil War look like a video game in comparison to what will actually happen. That is what the Japanese plan was and why they took the big gamble (which they lost and luck did play a part in favor or US, or perhaps the Hand of Providence – but so did unexcelled American navy leadership of that era) at Midway.

Back then the Navy had Chester Nimitz as commander of the Pacific fleet, and leaders such as Frank Fletcher, Spruance and even true navy war admirals such as Adm. McCain, John's daddy.

And not given much credit – since American History is played down along with displays of genuine patriotism – in favor of the New Woke-ism and I'm not talking about Wake Island either - was Chief of Navy Operations - Adm. Ernst King, a truly brilliant but rather crusty leader at the very top of the Chain of Navy command.

You know, no one today seems to be proud of what the U.S.A. was just 60 years ago. Instead the Main Stream Media and types such as CNN and MSNBC seem to be doing everything they can to set up this country to become The Fall Guy - in a military war with China, Russia or Aliens from Altair - anything to get people scared so the MSM can sell more soap, and con-games to the American People.

This country is constantly being made the bad guy, evil in every way including its past history. It's all bull-shit but that's what happening.  A masochistic society bent on its own destruction. That's my opinion.

So, in my opinion, knowing nothing about military stuff – but very proud of what was The Republic of the United States of America used to be, as in the Eisenhower and before era – I'd hate to see it all go down the tubes because the Great Satan now leads the country along with his Piglet little devils in the House and Senate and scrambling and squealing all over the government institutions and crapping on everything that used to be considered Sacred to this nation, once upon a time - a Nation Under God.

I think that if the curtain is pulled away – what is actually going on is that military heads are reliving what COULD have happen had Japan not lost Midway, and had NOT focused on Battle Ships instead of Carriers, and a few other slip-ups – we well could have had a land-war and one fought for keeps.

The Great Satan and his devil-piglets see China and Russia as an alliance – a military alliance – now super strong – who themselves (China and Russia) see the United States as the major military threat. Like, why keep PUSHING NATO (which is really USA, not the NATO piglets - up to Russia and China borders?

The Piglets of the EU and U.S.A favorite puppy, Britain the Has Been Empire but Nothing Now but fish and chips but no electricity to cook them - whose always following its master, USA. In the global strategy leading up to global war the EU and that whole bunch along with Mighty Estonia, really don't count for nothing in the total scheme of things. They are all hot air. Well, so much for going off on a tangent, back on topic. (2023-Jan-11, Revised)


(2023-Jan-27) As the years come and go, and we get older each day - if we re-read what we have written when we were a child, and then if we re-read perhaps what we wrote when in school, say high school or college, and if we re-read what we have written at the various stages of our life - we often see how much our thinking changes. And sometimes what we may have written, say in our 30-ties or 40-ties, etc., might seem today to be bizarre. And they might indeed be so - as read today. And perhaps even when they were written they might have then seem bizarre to others.

It is perhaps a vulnerablilty we put ourself into when we put our expressions to the pen. If we have a talent for painting pictures - that then is sort of a safe way for a person to express himself. But again - even doing paintings poses a risk. The risk ofcourse is that you open yourself up to criticism. People may not like what you have to say - that may not like your opinions on this or that. Even Emily Dickinson had her share of finger-pointers. If you have read some of her poetry you would not think that could be. 


I find Adolf Hitlers paintings and sketches quite good, in fact I think some of them are really nice. His sketches and paintings are similar in many ways to the works of Utrillo. Go google or duckduckgo Utrillo,


Then checkout Hitler's art work.




I find Utrillo's work nice. But nothing mystical. I find Hitler's landscapes beautiful in a mystical sense. Almost enchanting. I think for sure that a British Gainsboro or Turner is clearly magnificant art. In fact, in 100 years from now, history may well say that Britain's finest hour was proably the time of Gainsboro, Turner, Shakespeare, etc., but that for the 20th and early 21 century it lost its grandure and turned to mush. 


If you want to psychoanalize me through my art (I hope never through what I write as it is not only grammatically incorrect - but I never know whether I am serious or not - perhaps now emerging dementia, perhaps in my childhood - emotionally unstable in a sort of way.


My favorite master of the landscape artist has to be Meindert Hobbema, (1638 - 1709). The original is in the London National Gallery. I think that alone is sufficient reason for Vladimir Vladimirovich to NOT Nuke London (as Col Douglas Macgreggor has alluded to that this might well happen if Biden/NATO push too far). Aim Satan II at Liverwust if you must. Cook them in Satan II's giant microwave - but leave London alone.



A few days after 9/11 I took the train to Manhattan to visit my mother in the Village. I went that route so to visit Chicago art museum which was displaying Hobemma's masterpiece, Avenue of the Trees. (Unless it was a copy which I cannot think it so.) I don't know if it would be now safe to visit Chicago. But if it is I can tell you from my own visits that this museum is definately one of the worlds greatest art museums (if you are into art and stuff).

No. 1 ofcourse is NYC Manhattan's Metropolitan Musium of Art on 5th Avenue. One word for it: Astonishing. If there is another word, a better adjetive perhaps - it was for me to see sublime beauty everywhere in that huge place. Breathtaking. I lived close to it, actually. And often times I would divert from going to school at PS-6 and go instead to the Metropolitan. Maybe that is cause for why my grammar aint so good. I would go often. But back then, 1956-1958 it was free. On the internet now it is a $62. smack in the wallet for each adult. And that includes the midgets. No exception.


But if you do make it to NYC and are wearing a good hazmat suite, I'd mosey on down to the Frick Museum. It's an easy ride on the bus, providing someone is riding shotgun with a 12 gauage conviner. I'd put the Frick right after Chicago, but rubbing real close to Chicago. Frick isn't an all day and then some more tomorrow experience as with the Metropolitian or Chicago. But in the good hour or two of your visit - it will be one you will never forget. If you love art.

Guggenheim Museum is OK if you like "modern art." I can take a little of it in small doses. I don't consider Piccaso modern art. He and his brush stand alone - in uniqueness. I mean, exactly where do you place him? Part impresionist, post impressionist? I know all those guys and I just don't see him with even a touch of Monet pigment in him, not a bit.

The Guggenheim's architect was of course, Frank Lloyd Wright. When I think of Frank Lloyd I think of Hitler. No joke. Because Hitler aspired to be a great architect but would have made a better architect designing government buildings which you find all over Washington DC and indeed most of them need a good washing as the polution in DC is really bad. Mostly coming from the halls of congress and the White Man's house over on Pennsylvannia avenue. 

The Guggenheim is very close to where I lived when I was 12, 12 E. 97st, between Madison and 5th. Many a time while it was being built, in the late evening I would crawl in through the "sidewalk inspector's enterance" to see how the thing was being built. If you like flying saucers - you will like the Guggenheim. You will have to go visit it to see what I mean.  Just take the 5th ave buss up toward Harlem from the Metropolitan.

Oh, and if you go up far enough in that direction - but over on the West side - taking the subway until it can go no further - there is an utterly fantastic museum funded I was told by Radja - by Rockerfeller. I just can't remember the name and have not time to research it. But it too is worth a visit and plan a long day and if you have kids take them too to this museum. The ancient tapestries are a wonder to behold.  And they will like the Knights in their fine armour. 

Then after that visit, take a U-turn and head on back in the direction of the Village or Bowery, which ever place you feel you belong in, and go to the worlds greatest Museum of Natural History. Not too many kids are going to get turned on looking at a Titian, Rembrant or El Greco stuff in the Art Museum (the Egyptian section being perhaps the exception. Get a tase of a real mummy.)

But while your at the Amercian Museum of Natural History be sure to take them to see the giant dinasours, first see Mr. Tyannosaurus Rex, strong and tough like men should be; not particularly a cuddly creature. Then meander over and take a glance at Mrs. Brontosaurus. Mr. and Mrs. Dino are all bones right now. Comes from eating Klaus Swabb's insects and rodents instead of good nurishing horses, dogs and cats as dinasours were designed to eat. Klaus Swabb, an advocate of sour kraut for dinner, is the product of German Engineering - he figures he can design a takeover of the whole world and build it back better in his own image. Others have tried the past. One of them today, though an aging dingbat is still trying. Klaus will take it up in the rear - figuring he can hide out there until the NATO warriors finish of the Russians - what no man, or woman, or neutered warrior has done before.

Oh, and ask your kid to count the number of vertebre in the dinasour's neck. Then go around the huge rooms and have him/her/it/whatever to count the number of vertebre in every reptile (if you want to call them names) in the room. Then having done your homework and found out the number of vertebre in a giraf neck, your family pet's neck, the King of the Jungle, the Male lion - and the lioness, a female lion designed by the creator to suckle little lions and to stay pregnant and produce even more little lions (that is - the harmonics of Mr. and Mrs. Lion), And the number is (single digit between 6 and 8, for you boys and girls stuck in the LA public school system).


Well, back on topic. Visiting the American Museum of Natural History really is a three day experience. And you will enjoy it even more if you bring along a wife or companion. And if you have some harmonics - bring them along too and then you MUST visit the Hayden Planetarium. It was really good when I often visited it e when 12 years old and living in Manhattan. But in 2003 when I last visited my mother in NY - I again visited all these geat places. And The Hayden had been upgraded so good that I became depressed when I had to leave. And do see the huge black asteroid, still there, too heavy and big to be stolen. Very few of them in the world that size.

Oh, and all these museums except the Frick Art Museum have been very thoughtful of its guest. Each museum is fitted with a special isolation room, sound proofed, automatic deodorizing systems and lots of padding. And even some "straight-jackets, though curiously they are quite small. And when I asked one of the guards what these rooms were for - he looked bewildered. I pressed the point. I wanted to know - what is going on in New York City. Then he said, bowing his head ever so slightly as in some form of prayer, "They'is for our pay'n customer's screeming children. But I don't cotten none to that one bit. Don't think it right. no sir."  I replied, "Amen brother, vulture capitalism has come to New York City government. Anything to make the profits grown and not lose paying customers. Gots to keep em happy you know."

That's it. I could tell you much more. But I've got to go before the CIA takes me away.





new 2022-11-18


This is the first posting of approx. seventy five lectrure summary series.  These were the lecture summaries handed out to the new doctors who were now focusing on child psychiatry board certification.  These were delivered at the local university school of medicine in the 1967 - 1970 period. The first ones I am posting are those focusing on education of troubled children and teens. There are about 75+ pages of lectures, some basic stuff, some that get somewhat complicated. It is going to take a while to get all this done because there are other things that interest me more.

Dr. James R. Harte, MD Class Study Notes on Biological Variations in Development,, now have found all his class notes he  sent to me.

Dr. James R. Harte and the FEEDBACK BOARD for education of children in remote regions. Have found both the board, templates, etc. Will photo and put into webpage with history.


2022-11-15 So far 76 lecture note summaries of approx. 4-5 pages each.

One paper by Dr. Harte was partially eaten by the rats. I don't mean those type of rats that are scurrying about in the sacred halls of congress and white house, infecting the country with a new flea driven plague.

The paper is How Do You Work with a Learning Disabled Child, by J.R. Harte, M.D. This paper, the first two pages, is in the nature of lecture summaries which were handed out to the young medical doctors pursing a career is child psychiatry. All of these papers are just that – detailed and descriptive summaries of Dr. Harte's lectures to the student. This was some 50+ years ago.

Much new discovery and learning has taken place in this medical field of child psychiatry and also how we approach and treat the child with severe learning disabilities. And yet, I would say, each of the handouts does provide an excellent summary source of material for a student's thesis. Because the basic foundation has not changed that much.

One thing I think that has changed and changed for the better in these 50+ years - I think - is that Freud and his theories which were all essentially based on his constructs does not take such a prominent role today as it did back then. Some of these lecture summaries and the bibliographies are heavy into Freud.

Of the many in these long lists of references – I still have the book and although classical Freudian – it is very well written and was one of Ruth Downing's books during her time of study to become a psychiatric social worker, and who also underwent the years it takes in terms of a personal analysis. I underwent this analysis process over several years – it was in vogue even 50 years ago. But the only good I got out of it was that I learned how NOT to censor my thoughts.

Thus, this greatly aided me in my freshman college year in writing the various papers that were demanded of us. The book which is listed in Dr. Harte's bibliography on "Neuroses of Children" is (11) Fenichel, C., The Psychoanalytic Theory of Neurosis. by W.W. Norton, Inc. New York, NY, 1945. Other than that – I do believe that the modern approach to psychotherapy which includes counseling by for instance Church pastors who have been adequately trained in this field – behavioral therapy. I think with out continuous feedback from the therapist – much time is wasted which is detrimental to the patient in the long run.

Some other lecture summaries that I find interesting:


DEFINITION AND CONCEPTS OF SETS, ELEMENTS, OPERATIONS, GROUPS, PERMUTATIONS AND LOGICAL OPERATIONS - Beats me why this is something a medical doctors needs. I had to take this set theory stuff in my freshman year. It all went in my left ear and out of my right ear.

THREE TYPES OF EQUILIBRIUM "Piaget suggests that three different types of equilibrium have relevance of psychological functioning." 3pgs Some algebra and intro to doing a probability calculation. Some of it is very interesting.

In particular – a long time ago I read a chapter in a book regarding the Soviet Union and three types of stability systems. It illustrated this with three simple models. The model that illustrated the then Soviet Union clearly showed that it was the MOST unstable. U.S. model was more or less stable.

What is telling for me is that TODAY the U.S. according to those models is the MOST unstable and most likely to capsize as did USSR. Fortunately, I will have the picture of those models in my mind so even if I cannot find the original book – one can just look at the three diagrams and pretty much figure out for themselves the conclusion.

PEDIATRIC NEUROLOGY – DEVELOPMENTAL LANDMARK - Really nice summary and descriptions going month by month and then year to 8 yo. This stuff I think is now pretty much in all child development text books, etc.

SOME CURRENT THOUGHTS ON THE LEARNING DISABLED ADOLESCENT FROM A PROFESSIONAL … WHAT SHOULD BE DONE by Alice Thompson, Visiting Professor of Special Education, Special Education Department, Southern Illinois University.

This is indeed my very favorite of all the class lecture summaries, close to 100. It is two pages of 10pt closely spaced text. Dr. Alice Thompson's insights are SPOT ON. I know because I lived myself though what she is saying.

Dr. Harte sent these to me following each presentation and handout to his medical students. And his offer to send them to me is in one of his letters that I have already posted. In another letter he also said that I was free to use them and share them as I saw fit. Therefore, as far as I am concerned, they belong to the COMMONS. This includes the FEEDBACK BOARD of which I have a full model and templates which I know could be used so well in continents such as in AFRICA and the America's south of the Rio-Grande where everything is not always based on maximizing profit for a few.

I have finally gotten the unpublished lecture notes of Dr. Margaret Mahler organized. These are given at Mt. Morris in spring 1941 to a group of psychiatric social workers in Manhattan. Ruth knew her from those years. They are around 100 pgs total, types single space as was the way they did it with primitive typewriter.

Margaret Mahler

Margaret Schönberger Mahler was an Austrian-American psychiatrist, psychoanalyst, and pediatrician. She did pioneering work in the field of infant and young child research. On the basis of empirical studies, she developed a development model that became particularly influential in psychoanalysis and Object relations theory. Mahler developed the separation–individuation theory of child development. Wikipedia

May 10, 1897, Sopron, Austria-Hungary
October 2, 1985, New York City, U.S.

QUARTERLY JOURNAL OF STUDIES ON ALCOHOL Vol. 17, No. 1 pp. 96-107, March 1956. Dr. Giorgio Lolli, M.D. Research. Very heavy on Freudian reasons for alcoholism. Doesn't ring true today. AA does and is probably the best approach. Oh, I have not had a taste for vodka every since Nash left my life.

Editorial office: Laboratory of Applied Physiology, Yale University


Ruth S. Downing, ASCW

>Dr. Giorgio Lolli, M.D. Research Paper from - papers to be posted soon.

Dr. Jane Sherfey, M.D. Prominant Manhattan psychiatrist.  Payne Whitney Research and associate of Dr. Kinsey and wife and his report on American Sexuality. About as useful as a dish of Freud. Janey also published a book on female sexuality and was reviewed in New York Times book review. Google her. There is lots of stuff. If you think she might know that subject - you ought to read the book. It is not very big book. I lived with her about three years. Perhaps that is why I am called an Odd Ball.

Eleanor Roosevelt - at Harlem Negro Neighborhood Assn. 1959  Ruth published artical in ASSW magazine and also the raw draft which is better than the published version. Mrs. Roosevelt gave the graduation speech and this is detailed in other material here along with photos of her and Ruth Downing and some of the Harlem students. Even with Mrs. Roosevelts involvement - the conclusions of the 18 month study regarding intelligence IQ, etc. of negro students with emotional and educational problems - well it went nowhere. I comments on that in some articles in this website.

Harlem Neighborhood Association, 1959

The Story of Radja (Raca) & Identity papers issued by Australia, by Steve Colman More to come.

2022011-27 new material and photographs added.

Photos from  Funk Kaserne  Prince of Georgia, various Orthodox Arch Bishops, etc.

What follows next is the true story of a young Hungarian engineering student, Kálmán István, a Jew, who survived the German invasion of his country when he was a young teenager.

In detail is his story of what happened to Hungarian Jews - BECAUSE they were Jews. And BECAUSE they were Jews - the German political machine and its party, the NAZI party - they were classified as Untermensch. That is to say, they were - Sub-human - less than human.


link to Kalman Istav 182 pg pdf book is now corrected & verified.  Work will continue this eveing . 

2022-11-10 notes on index page regarding Steve Colman 182 story
What follows next is the true story of a young Hungarian engineering student, Kálmán István, a Jew, who survived the German invasion of his country when he was a young teenager. In detail is his story of what happened to Hungarian Jews - BECAUSE they were Jews. And BECAUSE they were Jews - the German political machine and its party, the NAZI party - they were classified as Untermensch. That is to say, they were - Sub-human - less than human.

This belief system, for that is what it was - is an outgrowth (the "is" because the belief is still very much prevalent in the world today, yes 21st century world. This distorted belief system was and is still an expression of the Eugenics movement - which emerged as a more structured belief system during the middle and late 19th century - and then went into overdrive in early 20th century Germany (where it gained the most strength in Europe) and also in the United States.

In Kálmán István long story there is also toward the end my mothers situation in Berlin and her necessity out of survival of her young son, Dankar, she had to work for the German Foreign Ministry and Ribbentrop (check spelling) who also facilitated her efforts to save her brother's life from scheduled execution in the concentration camp near Belgrade, Serbia - by going directly to Himmler (check sp) who then provided his personal plane for her to travel to Belgrade and back. Both from what Kalman told me and wrote in his long story and which Radja confirmed a number of times in my visits to her in the small apartment in the Village - but also would only refer to him as being, "a person very high up in government." Her last letter to me used that same phrase.

One other strange thing I remembered after reading that letter - she was telling me one time (I was always asking her questions since I really like history) "How did you get out of Berlin in time?" She said, "I sent Vera (her youngest sister) and Chuck (American name of my half brother Dankmar, 5 yrs older than me) to go to Munich by train." I asked her, "Radja, why didn't you go too?" She finally said, on my last visit - "I had to stay until the Russian's got there (Berlin)." I mentioned that to S in a letter in very early part of 2022. I still have it. I have often wondered why she had me baptised in the Russian Orthodox Church in Munich in 1947, a year after my birth. (photocopy of that certificate, in Russian, is in on this website.) Who knows. That may have been the only Orthodox church in Munich at that time.  But I do know that one of her really happy moments was when she visited Russia, Moscow, Leningrad, etc., and took many picures and was there a week or so at the very same time as the immediate aftermath of Chernoble. She loved Russia and its literature and sent me some very beautiful hand painted dishes from Moscow which I still have. Perhpas it is all coincidence.  perhaps not. Whatever, it all seems to have been for the better.

- continues on link above -


The story of Steven Anthony Colman {182 pgs, pdf) formerly Kálmán István

This story is absolutely amazing.  Steve Colman (Kálmán István) was a Hungarian jew.

My Life in Australia  added material

My Diplomas in Karate and Engineering and What's it all about (very rough draft, developed in haste)

(2022-12-13, Tuesday Morning, newest entry, extensive) + commentary on life in general

(2022-12-13) Tuesday, more on karate and also uninvited commentary on the "vaccine coming disaster"

Karate, an Art and a Method of Self-Defense  (2022-12-12) Added an article I wrote for the Chattanoogan Magazine in Aug. 1975 concerning karate in Chattanooga and also my teaching of it in the American legion, Post 14 and my philosophy that the Martial Arts are both a way to develop discipline and character in addition to self-defense and that many other sports provide such a feature, a by-product of the sport itself.

Dialoging from the  internet chat rooms  over the several years - copied text

A Letter to Ruth the day I quit school (16)

Dream on thy lovely child    

Death crept in the other day and took my child from me

My House

For a Glimering Moment

The Harvest Field of Life

Who Shall Blame the Blessed Child for What He Has Become

To My Grave I Walked One Night

The Midnight Moon. And some memories of Australia and Funk Kaserne  near Munich Earliest prose of mine, about 10 or 11

Letter to Chad Arment on Economic Prejudice and its Effects on Minorities in All Nations  Much more to come. Collecting takes time.

Intelligence & What I Observed at Cardiologist Offic

Add the story of Benny Green and the gettos of Memphis


above  for reference purposes only  tempory only


Developing Support Arguments for issues raised in ''Letter to Chad Arment''

We are in the gyre !  We will reap the whirlwind (Hosea 8:7)



New material on K and Cambodia story.  Several hundred additional pages found, including my transcripts of K story and about 50 to 70 pages of K written notes. It is a very sad story of what happened to these two young college girls. 



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I will be moving all of the Cambodian stuf

most of what follows here is more or less extemporaneous rantings.

2022-12-07, Wednesday. I think it would be very accurate to say that the beginning of the attached summary of the book, Murder of a Gentle Land - "What transpired in Cambodia constitutes one the the great, terrifying stories of our time" the part that says, "... in Cambodia ..." could justifyable be replaced by: ... in the Soviet Union, in Poland and the Warsaw Getto, ... in specifically Ukraine ... and if you will just attempt to study what happened in China with the occupation by the Imperial Army of Japan ... all that happened to Cambodia can be magnified easly by 10 times and you may approach a better understanding of what happened in the other countries during world war II. Then it was NOT Pol Pot - but Adolf Hitler and his band of merry murderers.

If you study history and really study in depth what is happening in Europe as regards to this Ukranian war and most likely soon to be war with China, you are drawn to the conclusion (in my opinion) that the initiators of the conflicts is primarily by, first among equals - The (Rebulic of - sorry, no more) United States; then Britain, the English - and I sall say it, once again that it is the English, the Brits, their political class - that is fermenting war and more wars - for their OWN political ends. And in the case of Britain and also the U.S. for them > the ends justify the means. Regardless of the loss of life and suffering they cause. For these two collaborators - it is for others to pay the consequences for their (U.S. and Britain) actions. That is a classic sign and cardinal symptom of the PSYCHOPATIC PERSONALITY. The other cardinal sign of these types of regressive humans is HABITUAL LYING even when telling the truth is to their own advantage. For these derranged individuals (and they now over-populate the halls of the U.S congress, and it's show white White House inhabitants. And too, the British House of Commons, also over-populated with their own brand of military police (MPs) - once known as Gestapoites.

Key actors:

Anthony Blinken - the Omlet Man. Who seems to me to be filled with rationlizations and a perpetual habit of dissembling.  It is not so much that he is an out-right liar - but rather, deep inside he feels himself incomplete as a man - and thus he is constantly at war with both himself and has created imaginary enemies such as the Russian and Chinese people. 

Generalissimo Herr Prof. Doktor Jens Stoltenberg, Lord Secretary of the Kennel Club of NATO who never met a Russian that he didn't want to beat up - but was always afraid to try. 

Joseph Biden, Commander in Chief of the Corn Flake Society of America. Home residence, Battle Creek Sanitarium in Michigan. Ref 0, Joseph Biden, U.S. Patent no. 558,393, Flaked Cereals and Process of Preparing Same, filed May 31, 1895, issued April 14, 1896.

President Zelenko, Chief Commandant of what is left of Ukraine.  Main attribute? Confused and disoriented as a duck who has been banged in the head.

Now begins  the story of K and her escape from Cambodia.  I finally found much of the raw material needed to put together her story, what happened to her in the aftermath of what happened after the Nixon-Kissinger and their gang destroyed the government of Cambodia and drive its leader, Prince Norodom Sihanouk into exile and put into power Marshal Lon Nol.

repeatedly as defence minister and provincial governor. As a nationalist and conservative, he led the military coup of 1970 against Prince Norodom Sihanouk, abolished the monarchy, and established the short-lived Khmer Republic.

That is being politicall polite [what wikipedia is saying above.  Remember, it is not the organization called that is saying this - but rather it is that provides the platform for others to express their opinions with out the censorship you get from google-grad and unfortunately, {a really super great contribution to the education of Americans, young and old and this goes for the world at large too.]}


Prince Norodom Sihanouk wanted to keep Cambodia NEUTRAL, NON-ALIGNED. But that was unacceptable to Nixon and his side-kick, Henry The Large Kissinger.  Later we will give more supporting history. When Norodom Sihanouk would not obey, would not bend the knee and lick Nixon-Kissinger feet - then when Sihanouk was visiting in China hoping to get some aid - the B52's came and brought a reign of terror on the land of the gentle people, known as the Cambodians. It didn't matter that congress, for what it was worth then and for what it is worth today (nothing) had made it illegal to attack Cambodia. Nixon  was the Imperial President and would no whatever he wanted.  Same is true today.  Biden's handlers are leading this country to its destruction.  And the Treponema Pallidum   [a LindSeed Gramnegative bacterium that comes from the phallus] eggs on the American people - infecting them with their own disease of hate and exploitation of the weak and those unable to defend themselves.  Such as Venezuela - where  the Biden bunch think they have some ordained  right to decide who that countrie's chief leader shall be.  But ask yourself this:  What are they, the Biden bunch and their spirochaetale bretheren  in the congress [and they too are Lindseedgramnegative bacteria of the ricochet romance type who have fun today and pay the cost tomorrow] Venezuela has the highest reserve of "prime oil".  What else do you need to know?  When the Bush desert rats destroyed Iraq to save it for democracy - what did they grab when they headed for the exit doors?  The oil fields.  And the army is still there - NOT to protect the iraqi people's freedom BUT they protect and surround those very oil fields. 

And just as Cambodia was destroyed for not "going along with Nixon" so too do the British and U.S. (actual masters of NATO and all of its piglets and swine) threaten Serbia with the same message - "You do as the U.S. tells you - or you will be NEXT!"

(2022-12-05, Monday. About 250 pages of

K story from tapes which I transcribed in 1980 now recovered in additon to much handwritten material. 

Go to link  But remember, it took the brave American military about three weeks to uterly destroy the Land of the Gentle People.  It is going to take much longer to get all the typed material converted to text using OCR where it can be read by those with a brave heart. 


The Story of K - Escape from Cambodia - Life in the Republic of the United States, Land of Opportunity and Forgiveness

Real Life Experience resulting from the catastrophy of the Pol Pot regime which resulted from the U.S. invasion of Cambodia and the U.S. destruction of the government of Cambodia and its society.

2022-11-28 move letter to story of k own page, add link to that.




Continue to Escape from Cambodia (Khmer) 1979) scan and post my typed up of the experience as told by K who survived and came to USA and went on to get her BSEE at Georgia Tech but did not become a rambling wreck as she  had already experienced the realities of life that few ever know. But she did become on hell of an engineer as she went on to work for one of American's largest electronic companies - as did her husband, who also survived Cambodia and became U.S. Citizen and got his BSEE from good university.

Parts 1 thru 4, Diary of a Young Cambodia Refugee and Her Escape from Pol Pot,s Hell on Earth

Much true to life material.  Ruth took K and C into her home - into her home for over year and K demonstrated to me her advanced knowledge of EE by example of solving some problems in one of my circuit analysis textr books from the U.T. years.  She could barely speak English (French of course and best I remember - we one time connected with Radja for me to understand what she was wanting.

She wanted to go back to engineering school though she knew she would have to start over.  She had almost completed her studies when Pol Pot came into the picture. Most of the educated like her were killed.  But she was very perseptive with great presence of mind, like Radja, and survived. She had seen much death and slaughter.  But when she got to America what did she want to do?  Begin again, not give up but go for the goal and get her degree in engineering.  And she did.

Update.  I have retrieved approx 100 - 150 pages of K's story which I transribed from the cassette tapes. And I have all of her hand written testimony now! All pagss are typed using old dot matrix printer.  And they have my notes, etc.  Unfortunately this work was in 1980 when the primitive but back then high tech - computers used when they evolved upward according to Darwin evoution laws - to imploying floppy disks. 

These things are similar to what your politicians in the congress  (with a few exceptions) and ALL in the White mans house, FLOPPY BRAINS who can't think how to get out of the sh!t hole they have dug for themseves and this country.  The keep digging the hole deeper - and the money class - their big donors who actually run this country - keep of pouring their excrement into that deep and deeper hole.  If you have ever wondered why, it IS - why most - but NOT ALL - politicians SMELL SO BAD, well now you know.

The old floppy disks use a different format system than that used today. With the typewriter documents I can covert them to text form and then copy and paste into MS Word  which I might find time to do.  It is easy to do this once you have learned how to do it.

Rev 1, 2022-12-19 Monday






How the 17th Amendment to the Constitution

Is Destroying The Republic of The United States of America

Republic of America book, 1847   26 pages now posted






Go to the Animal Farm [images all made. will start posting either the pdf's or jpgs]

We are moving large sections

(Veterinary book published in 1844 and consisting of 250 pages dealing with treatment of diseases in cattle, sheep and swine (pig family). Also, includes 8 pages of advertisements from that period in our history. Complete with index and table of continets. It is amazing to me just how much people knew in those days, almost 200 years now.  I will get the portins dealing with brain and liver inflamation uploaded soon.  As the American society crashes and falls apart - the question will arise "How can we treat our illnesses when doing to the hosptial will bankrupt us. Or even going to a clinic (since private practice is almost gone for doctors due to the lawyer's feasting on malpractice suites an almost daily event in the life of doctors now

Do you think this is delusional thinking? Go to the Medicare/Medicade/SSI government website and look at the flow of money going OUT of the government Medicare deposit box. Then look at how much money CAME IN. Two TRILLION (ROUNDED) went OUT. 400 billion came in - in the form of permiums. The growth of Medicare is now on a full epxponential power function. What that means is that next year, 2023 when Government financial (fincal) year ends Sept 30, 2023, money out of Medicare will be approximately 3 to 3-1/2 TRILLION WORTHLESS DOLLARS. Money coming into the fund will essentially be a CONSTANT. It will be roughly 400 BILLION of worthless pieces of paper. This is what these WORTHLESS POLITICIANS and the FEDERAL RESERVE has brought to the American people. The American people sleep while their houses start falling apart as is happening now with the society overall.






2023-JAN-04 I have about finished all I am going to do with the Nash affair. I am going to fill in the rest of the blanks but just give the facts and forget about any idea of putting it all into logical book for as there are other things I woud rather be doing. Mainly what is left is finishing up about the derringer and how come it was the key to this whole masked insanity stuff - and how I knew Nash wanted to kill me because that derringer provided the necessary corroberation of what otherwise proably no one would have believed. Especially a jury. I also want to give some experience of life in a genuine psycho ward.  When you are 19 years of age you are still a teenager kid and all that goes with it.  Well, its 3am. I had better call it quits for now.

(2022-12-19, Monday)  EXTENSIVE ADDITONS AND DETAILS ON NASH CASE IN I trave; to Kansas City.  Link to Kansas City


1 A Home Again letter from Glenn 

Margo Freshwater v State of Tennessee - pdf 

An 18 year old former baby sitter goes on a murderous rampage pdf searchable. The various photos in the articles still need to be uploaded and will be done as time allows. The greater portion of this article has got it all wrong. So very wrong. Such as "But Nash was increasingly consumed by paranoid delusions that agents from the Memphis bar were after him." Sounds good but is total BS. This was the biggest travesty of all ''

Glenn Nash was declared insane''

Unsolved Mysteries with Robert Stack, Season 12 -1 , Full episode. Begin Margo Freshwater at 10m 44s.  At this time Margo was on the run and Unsolved Mysteries makes a plea for public help. 

Links to some of history of this Margo & Nash case. This document is in PDF but searchable, ie. the links should be accessable.

The Case of Glenn W. Nash, Attorney at Law and the murder of Hillman Robbins in Memphis, TN

Daniel McNaughton c.1856

The McNaughton rule (pronounced, and sometimes spelled, McNaughton) is any variant of the 1840s jury instruction in a criminal case when there is a defence of insanity:

that every man is to be presumed to be sane, and ... that to establish a defence on the ground of insanity, it must be clearly proved that, at the time of the committing of the act, the party accused was labouring under such a defect of reason, from disease of the mind, as not to know the nature and quality of the act he was doing; or if he did know it, that he did not know he was doing what was wrong. See

What's it all about?  Can you sort of summarize it all?  OK

(2022-12-19, Monday)  EXTENSIVE ADDITONS AND DETAILS ON NASH CASE IN I trave; to Kansas City.  Link to Kansas City   

and why he had to kill me and how he planned to do it.  It was all about the derringer and Dr. Harte's potential testimony - but if I was dead then Dr. Harte testimony woud never have come to light.

2022-12-05, Monday. Why Nash killed Hillmon Robbins.  Why I declined. and more. Go to link

Casing the liquor store  on down to bottom half of page.  Later I will recall how to point the link to a specific section of another page. 

1987-10-25 (1) Interview with Asst. Atty Generals of Tennessee   syntax fixed. more responsive page now.

 - Why was this derringer - disassembled - and - left in pieces on the counter top?

1987-01-22 The Four Barrel Derringer and I Travel to Kansas City  14 pgs raw material  2022-dec-30, 1245pm I am finally come to the crux of the matter.[the most important part of the whole story] It is on its own page and may

In future episodes I will be moving the table of contents to a separate page and the contents to their own pages.  This index page will have the hyperlink as The Case of the Mask of Insanity

The four barrel derringer, scattered on the counter in pieces - was the quintessence of the evidence, all that was ever need to prove beyond any reasonable doubt that the murder of Hillmon Robbins was committed with forethought and malice, planned by criminal attorney Glenn W. Nash. It was the, the missing piece of the puzzle necessary AND sufficient to establish that Attorney Glenn Nash was NEVER in any way mentally deficient much less paranoid-schitzophrenic - and therefore not in charge of his mental faculties.  Just the opposite was the case in fact.  Yet it was left on the counter top for all to see - the detectives, the state lawyers - all to see.  But they never asked and never thought to ask - why?

Why was the four barrel derringer, all taken apart, neglected as a clue to persue?  As it was, Attorney Glenn W. Nash won his trial in the The Case of the Mask of Insanity

It happened 56 years ago.

For the next page which is in development - go to McNaghten Summary Page

What has been provided so far is but a scratch from the raw notes. More to come.  Patience is a virtue, possess it if you can.

(2022-12-04)  I am summarizing letter written in January 22, 2022 which provides most of what happened in the Nash murder case and how I fit into the story.  I have other things I want to do other than dwell on the past; so I decided to summarize events but hold on to the Derringer matter until later.  It is probably obvious by now with what I have already provided. 

Things such as my experience in life in a state psychiatric hospital for three weeks are interesting in so much as what types of people you get to meet and come to know - that you will not experience in such places as riding the city bus to work, etc., or even meet on the streets of San Francisco or LA, other than those places with population of schizophrenics.  Fifty-five - sixty years ago such unfortunate people could be held in the comfort of a psychiatric hospital - which back then was NOT a "snake-pit." 

Jerry Summers, Atty at Law   On 2022-11-28 add ltr to JS and put also contents into general story

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